﻿<?xml version="1.0" encoding="utf-8"?><rss version="2.0"><channel><title>evock's Xanga</title><link>http://evock.xanga.com/</link><description>Latest Xanga weblog from evock</description><language>en-us</language><ttl>60</ttl><image><title>The Weblog Community</title><url>http://s.xanga.com/images/xangalogobutton.gif</url><link>http://evock.xanga.com/</link></image><item><title>It's been a long time!</title><link>http://evock.xanga.com/444978716/its-been-a-long-time/</link><guid>http://evock.xanga.com/444978716/its-been-a-long-time/</guid><pubDate>Sat, 18 Feb 2006 03:32:32 GMT</pubDate><description>It's been quite a while since my last post here.&amp;nbsp; My life has changed so much since then.&amp;nbsp; It's almost funny to go back and read the things I wrote while working in the city.&amp;nbsp; That was one of the most miserable periods in my life.&amp;nbsp; There's so much stuff going on, but I really hate posting personal stuff on the Internet.&amp;nbsp; It always seems to come back and bite you in the ass.&amp;nbsp; &lt;br&gt;&lt;br&gt;I still don't understand the popularity of MySpace.&amp;nbsp; Xanga is a much better site in general for posting written content.&amp;nbsp; MySpace is populated by retarded kids who think embedding videos is the most awesomest thing to do on the Internets.&lt;br&gt;&lt;br&gt;Anyway, I'm still around, though I rarely write or visit this site.&amp;nbsp; &lt;br&gt;</description><comments>http://evock.xanga.com/444978716/its-been-a-long-time/#firstcomment</comments></item><item><title>Monday, April 04, 2005</title><link>http://evock.xanga.com/235714399/item/</link><guid>http://evock.xanga.com/235714399/item/</guid><pubDate>Mon, 04 Apr 2005 15:00:07 GMT</pubDate><description>This made me laugh.&amp;nbsp; Not written by me!&amp;nbsp; But very funny! &lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;blockquote&gt;We moved into a new office at work, and it's a brand&lt;br /&gt;new building with brand new toilets, but I can't stand to use them.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;One thing I like to do almost everyday is excuse myself and use the&lt;br /&gt;restroom, and take a small 10-15 minute nap. I do this by using the&lt;br /&gt;handicap stall(plus it's a small office), and I end up going number&lt;br /&gt;two. Once finished and flushed(I don't enjoy the smell), I like to put&lt;br /&gt;my elbows on my knees and then kind of hunch over and rest my head on&lt;br /&gt;my arms.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;The problem is, and I'm not trying to brag here, when I hunch over&lt;br /&gt;my penis ends up touching the water in the toilet. As you can imagine,&lt;br /&gt;that is gross as hell and really prevents me from getting a good quick&lt;br /&gt;nap in. Hell, one time I was pooping and when I went to wipe, my hand&lt;br /&gt;scimmed across the water, because the water level is so ridiculously&lt;br /&gt;high.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;I know how to lower the water level in a conventional toilet, where&lt;br /&gt;it has the plunger and the big box thing behind the seat, but the&lt;br /&gt;toilets at work don't have that. &lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;So, aside from scrunching up my nuts and squeezing them between the&lt;br /&gt;knees while I nap, is there anyway I can adjust the water level or does&lt;br /&gt;anybody have any kind of experience with this kind of thing?&lt;/blockquote&gt;</description><comments>http://evock.xanga.com/235714399/item/#firstcomment</comments></item><item><title>Wednesday, March 23, 2005</title><link>http://evock.xanga.com/227648400/item/</link><guid>http://evock.xanga.com/227648400/item/</guid><pubDate>Wed, 23 Mar 2005 18:07:22 GMT</pubDate><description>I am a weird dude.&amp;nbsp; I still feel like there's a huge part of my
personality I'm hiding from everyone, including myself.&amp;nbsp; I feel
like if I go in there it would be really weird.&lt;br&gt;
&lt;br&gt;
When I was in first grade I won the spelling bee because two other
people misspelled the word "thief."&amp;nbsp; They both spelled it
"theif."&amp;nbsp; Dan Madonia won the Spelling Bee in 2nd grade.&amp;nbsp;
Then I won again in 3rd grade.&amp;nbsp; In High School I finally realized
that the spelling bee is a retarded competition, basically because
retarded people started winning it.&amp;nbsp; Sure, if you do nothing but
teach spelling 24/7 you can win... duh.&amp;nbsp; Anyway.&lt;br&gt;
&lt;br&gt;
I'm starting a new job next week.&amp;nbsp; I'm hoping it will rock my
socks.&amp;nbsp; I was really unhappy at my old (current, as of today) job
and it affected me badly in several ways.&amp;nbsp; Also I need to get a
haircut, I look like Dilbert's boss again. &lt;img src="http://www.xanga.com/Images/bitter.gif"&gt;&lt;br&gt;
&lt;br&gt;
As I get older and older I begin to realize I should have been writing
down my memoirs over the course of my life so that I have something to
look back on when I'm older.&amp;nbsp; My life was so fucking bizarre, I
don't think anybody could believe it really happened.&amp;nbsp; And I
haven't gone up into the belltower yet.&lt;br&gt;
&lt;br&gt;
In closing, 2 things.&amp;nbsp; One, a quote that only real nerds like me
would get:&lt;i&gt; "Some people, when confronted with a problem, think ``I
know, I'll use&lt;br&gt;
regular expressions.'' Now they have two problems."&lt;/i&gt; -- Jamie Zawinski&lt;br&gt;
&lt;br&gt;
2nd, my pgp public key, send me some encrypted shit, I LOVE IT.&lt;br&gt;
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</description><comments>http://evock.xanga.com/227648400/item/#firstcomment</comments></item><item><title>Thursday, March 17, 2005</title><link>http://evock.xanga.com/223833870/item/</link><guid>http://evock.xanga.com/223833870/item/</guid><pubDate>Thu, 17 Mar 2005 17:18:20 GMT</pubDate><description>I am a player of World of Warcraft, I play as Cellen the Human Paladin, currently on the Doomhammer server.  As a refugee from EverQuest I found WoW to be a big breath of fresh air after the eternal grind of EQ.  As of this writing my character is level 56 and I am still mostly enjoying the game, however the game does have some serious deficiencies.  &lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;The one I'll discuss presently is the poor itemization for most quest rewards.  In EQ, as in WoW, classes were limited to certain armor types - cloth, leather, chain, plate.  One subtle difference in WoW is that each tier of armor-wearer can wear all the armor below their tier as well as the armor designed for their class.  This means a plate wearer in WoW can wear mail, leather, or cloth.  This has the interesting effect of allowing people to "Graduate" to higher tier armor once they reach level 40 (though the same thing could be accomplished in EQ by restricting an item both by class and level).  Now this isn't the main problem with WoW's itemization but it does tie in, as I'll explain.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;Most of the items in EverQuest had stats and effects that would be useful to any class that was able to wear the item.  A leather bracer may have +100 HP, +100 Mana, +50 attack, +4 Mana regen, +10 Stamina, +10 wisdom, +50 armor.  This is just an example but there were plenty of items like this.  The 3 leather wearing classes in EQ were Monk, Druid, and Beastlord.  Because the stats were balanced between melee, caster, and hybrid, any of those 3 classes would benefit from wearing the item.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;Most items in WoW don't follow that pattern.  A typical quest reward item in WoW would be a leather bracer with +17 agility, +17 Strength, +100 armor.  At the high end (level 40+) game, the only leather wearers are Druids and Rogues.  This bracer clearly only benefits rogues - it provides nothing for a spellcaster; and while druids are definitely capable of meleeing in their animal forms, very few druids would gear themselves as melee characters and neglect the mana/casting side of their characters.  While my character is a Paladin, I play mostly duoing with a Druid, and I've seen firsthand how few quest rewards offer any benefit at all to Druids, especially those that choose to gear up as healers (casters).  Almost all weapons and armor that are usable by a druid give little to zero benefit to mana or casting.  Around level 40-42 when we completed the Scarlet Monastery instance, and my druid companion got &lt;a href="http://www.thottbot.com/index.cgi?i=3491" target="_new"&gt;Whitemane's Chapeau&lt;/a&gt; , a cloth hat, which was by far the best item at her level.  To make clear: the best item for a druid - a leather wearer - at that level is a cloth item.  &lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;Anyway that's the basic problem with itemization.  There are too many one-sided items for members of a class when there should be more balanced stats on all of them.  Instead of +17 agility and +17 strength, the bracer described above could have +17 Agility and +17 intellect, or +12 agi, +12 str, +12 int.  Or add a healing/damage bonus for nature based spells, etc.  SOMETHING to make the item appealing to anybody of that armor tier.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;That's all for now! Kek! &lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;Cellen!</description><comments>http://evock.xanga.com/223833870/item/#firstcomment</comments></item><item><title>Wednesday, March 09, 2005</title><link>http://evock.xanga.com/218889142/item/</link><guid>http://evock.xanga.com/218889142/item/</guid><pubDate>Wed, 09 Mar 2005 19:06:45 GMT</pubDate><description>Yesterday was probably in my top 5 worst days ever in terms of commuting.  When I left the house around 8:15 AM it was about 35-40 degrees.  Sometime around 11-12 it started snowing, and by about 2 it was blizzarding heavily.  The wind was insane.  Snow stopped around 5 PM and the sun came out - wee!&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;So I end up leaving work at the normal time, 6:45.  There's ice all over the street.  I get into Penn Station and my train is operating about 2 minutes late, which is pretty good considering the weather.  &lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;As the train approaches Jamaica we come to a dead stop.  After 10 minutes of sitting, the conductor comes on the PA and announces that we're waiting for track space in Jamaica.  Another 10 minutes and we've moved about 30 feet or so.  This is a PACKED LIRR train - people are standing shoulder to shoulder pretty much, as usual these days.  &lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;So we finally roll into Jamaica 20-25 minutes late, and of course my connecting train has long since departed.  So once again I get to pass the time in the "New" HORRIBLE FUCKING PIECE OF SHIT Jamaica Station LIRR waiting area.  Whoever designed this fucking thing should be sued, and then hunted down and shot.  The way Jamaica used to work was that there was an enclosed overpass that connected all 8 train tracks.  If was a decent waiting area because it had a TV  and - get this - HEAT! &lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;The new Jamaica LIRR waiting area is a fucking eyesore and is probably the most poorly designed structure I've ever had the misfortune to enter.  Now, instead of a nice enclosed tunnel, we are expected to stand in this cavernous steel/glass enclosure that is *OPEN ON THE NORTH AND SOUTH SIDES*, creating a sort of wind tunnel.  It had stopped snowing around 4 PM but in the LIRR waiting area of Jamaica Station it was like a fucking blizzard with the snow blowing around and around.  There are these glass panels up there that keep you from jumping down onto a train - these glass panels were pure white, covered with snow, despite the fact that there's a 50 foot ceiling over them for 100 feet in all directions.  Someone took the liberty of writing "The MTA HAS NO CLUE" and "THIS FACILITY SUCKS!!" in the snow on the glass panels.  Oh, also the waiting area has 3 or 4 heat lamps - enough for maybe 7 or 8 people to stand under - as its only heat source.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;I have no idea if the Jamaica station is "done" or if there is still more to build, but assuming it's "done" in terms of leaving the north and south sides completely open, whoever designed it should have his/her/their architecting license revoked and then burned.  A FUCKING WIND TUNNEL AS A WAITING AREA!&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;So then my train finally rolls in around 8-8:30 PM.  We pull out of Jamaica and all is well until the train stops and the conductor gets on the PA to inform us that the switches are frozen and we have to wait for them to thaw.  So I'm thinking, man when am I going to get home, April?  &lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;Anyway to cut the story short I got home around 9:30.  Let me reiterate how happy I am to be paying 5% more to the MTA for this great service.  I can deal with weather issues and can cut them some slack, but don't raise the rates and then give shittier service.  One day I'll have to get into the issue of the fucking "new" M7 trains that the LIRR keeps touting as being so wonderful, but they are uncomfortable, poorly designed trains that smell like shitters on wheels.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;Hugs!</description><comments>http://evock.xanga.com/218889142/item/#firstcomment</comments></item><item><title>Monday, March 07, 2005</title><link>http://evock.xanga.com/217512249/item/</link><guid>http://evock.xanga.com/217512249/item/</guid><pubDate>Mon, 07 Mar 2005 14:03:34 GMT</pubDate><description>Here's a sentence whose horror can only be appreciated by people familiar with the Long Island Rail Road:&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;"Ladies and Gentlemen, for today only, this train will be making all local stops to Penn Station."&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;Seriously... fuck you guys.  My monthly ticket went from $168 to $178 and the service has continued to degrade.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;Car is working, family is well, life is beautiful.  :)&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;The smiley insertion thing doesn't work well here.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;I'm enjoying putting two linebreaks after every sentence.</description><comments>http://evock.xanga.com/217512249/item/#firstcomment</comments></item><item><title>Thursday, March 03, 2005</title><link>http://evock.xanga.com/215104458/item/</link><guid>http://evock.xanga.com/215104458/item/</guid><pubDate>Thu, 03 Mar 2005 14:53:59 GMT</pubDate><description>Hmm...&lt;br /&gt;&lt;blockquote&gt;On the East End of Long Island, the East Hampton School District is venturing into this terrain with a proposal to use breath analyzers on students suspected of being intoxicated in high school.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;District officials said they grew concerned after hearing of rampant student drinking. Teenagers were caught drinking on school trips to Costa Rica and Italy. A drunk student vomited on a bus on the way to a field trip. Then there were students showing up in class drunk, sometimes after having alcohol at lunch. &lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;Things seemed to be getting out of hand, even for East Hampton, a summer oasis for wealthy New Yorkers that reverts to a rural small town in the off-season where teenagers can get away with holding beach bonfire parties where alcohol flows freely, and year-round residents describe 16 as the de facto drinking age.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;So, to stop what seemed like a swell of student drinking, school administrators this winter proposed administering breath analyzers to students while high school is in session. Any student suspected of being drunk in class would be tested by a trained staff member, and not a police officer, board officials said. Results showing alcohol consumption would mean suspension. Refusing to take a test would be seen as an admission of guilt.&lt;/blockquote&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;a href="http://www.nytimes.com/2005/03/03/nyregion/03breath.html?ex=1267592400&amp;en=81d4a18fa4002d0a&amp;ei=5088&amp;partner=rssnyt" target="_new"&gt;Link to article&lt;/a&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;</description><comments>http://evock.xanga.com/215104458/item/#firstcomment</comments></item><item><title>Tuesday, March 01, 2005</title><link>http://evock.xanga.com/213857115/item/</link><guid>http://evock.xanga.com/213857115/item/</guid><pubDate>Tue, 01 Mar 2005 15:09:26 GMT</pubDate><description>Ok this day is starting out really super. I wake up to my alarm clock
blaring, interrupting a dream in which somebody was yelling at me that
"The database connection is DOWN! It's DOWN, man!" But I don't think
the guy meant down as in like, defunct, he just meant it was down,
like, "man the database connection is really down with it." I don't
know what that means. But I do know that I was fucking exhausted when I
woke up. I sat in the shower for like 10 minutes hoping the water would
thaw my eyelids open but it didn't work. I got dressed, and went
outside to shovel the step and the driveway. The guy who lives
downstairs loaned me his snow shovel which was a lot better than mine,
and man this thing cuts ice like nobody's bidness. So I got the
sidewalk cleared and I looked around, and none of my neighbors had
cleared their sidewalks. Whatever.&lt;br&gt;&lt;br&gt;So I head over to the train,
which, remarkably, was actually on time despite the snow. Change in
Jamaica was really super, my normal express to Penn Station wasn't
there, so I had to walk from one end of the train to the stairs up to
the newly redesigned, completely fecal looking platform, then wait for
them to announce a track. Oh, track 1! Joy. So I go down to track 1 and
of course the fucking thing is packed. I go alllllllllll the way down
to the other end of the train to find a place to stand. The train sits
on the track for about 10 minutes with the bell ringing like the doors
are closing, but they don't. So I'm standing in the train in Jamaica
with the doors open.&lt;br&gt;&lt;br&gt;Crap, work to do.  I'll finish the story later.&lt;br&gt;
&lt;br&gt;
(11 hours later)&lt;br&gt;
&lt;br&gt;
Ok so I was standing on the train in Jamaica.&amp;nbsp; Finally the train
moves out of the station and we head to Woodside (it wasn't an express
like my normal train).&amp;nbsp; We get to Woodside and the conductor gets
on the PA saying, "Due to a disabled train in one of the tunnels, we
STRONGLY suggest that if you can take the 7 train to your destination,
you do so."&amp;nbsp; So, like, I can take a hint.&amp;nbsp; I get off the
train along with 500 other people and trudge up to the 7 train (yay for
having an emergency MetroCard, I think it expires this year though and
has $20 on it &lt;img&gt;).&amp;nbsp; I'm not really a subway person so I had no
idea really where to go, but since my office is on 5th avenue, I got
off at 42nd and 5th and walked the rest of the way, which was
fine.&amp;nbsp; So I got to work like an hour late.&lt;br&gt;
&lt;br&gt;
The day got somewhat better after noon; I solved a minor problem that
was caused by someone else's shitty programming.&amp;nbsp; I had an Italian
hero which was pretty good except for the fact that they used regular
huge onions on it instead of those purple ones (Vidalia?) that you
expect to see on an Italian hero.&amp;nbsp; &lt;br&gt;
&lt;br&gt;
I also found out that one of my banks, Bank One, is merging with
Chase.&amp;nbsp; That's kind of surprising; I hadn't heard anything about
that until their message.&amp;nbsp; When Fleet merged with Bank of America
I knew about it right away.&amp;nbsp; Bank One has a decent web interface
for checking your account, but they also charged me $39.00 for a late
payment... asses.&lt;br&gt;
&lt;br&gt;
It's 9:10 PM right now and I'm waiting for my WoW server to come back
up.&amp;nbsp; These guys could learn a lot from Sony in the ways of making
a scalable game infrastructure.&lt;br&gt;
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</description><comments>http://evock.xanga.com/213857115/item/#firstcomment</comments></item><item><title>Monday, February 28, 2005</title><link>http://evock.xanga.com/213225992/item/</link><guid>http://evock.xanga.com/213225992/item/</guid><pubDate>Mon, 28 Feb 2005 17:11:10 GMT</pubDate><description>First let me say, TP on.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;This weekend we had no car at all so we were basically stranded in the house.  Which was fine really.  I have no problem staying in the house, I figure if I'm paying that much in rent, the longer I stay in the house the more I'm getting my money's worth.  &lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;It's depressing looking at the housing market in New York.  Regular shitty houses are going for like half a mil.  It's depressing because you have to accept the fact that you will never be able to afford a home where you've grown up and spent your entire life.  I was thinking I could get my parents' house but I imagine the capital gains tax alone on that would be obscene.  &lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;The idea of moving somewhere else to be able to afford something is kind of frightening.  How do you get a job in, say, North Carolina when you're living in NY?  Do people really hire over the phone etc?  It's all really weird, and the situation is made worse by the fact that I don't want to live anywhere besides New York.  I am tired of living in Queens and Nassau though... I want to live where I grew up.  But what they say is really true, you can't go home again.  I can remember when the corner of Main Street and Hampton Road in Southampton didn't have shops on it (I'm talking about the SE corner I think, across the street from Saks).  My mom used to take us to Sip N' Soda all the time, and I would always get a hot dog and a chocolate milk.  Sometimes we'd sit at the counter.  She'd order a hamburger extremely rare, and if it was too well done she'd go yell at the cook.  Then I would go to Poremba's and look at all the various car shit.  My dermatologist, Dr. Weinberg was across the street; I always thought he looked a lot like my aunt.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;No point to all this.  Just procrastinating.</description><comments>http://evock.xanga.com/213225992/item/#firstcomment</comments></item><item><title>Wednesday, February 23, 2005</title><link>http://evock.xanga.com/210127189/item/</link><guid>http://evock.xanga.com/210127189/item/</guid><pubDate>Wed, 23 Feb 2005 15:33:54 GMT</pubDate><description>I feel really old sometimes, and it doesn't feel how I expected it to feel.  I don't think I was ever young.  It's really weird.  I feel like I was born old.  Maybe I'm some old dude reincarnated.  It would be really reassuring to be able to think that; I guess that's why people come up with shit like the afterlife and heaven and all that.  I still want to go to Rome and stuff.  &lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;I used to have such lofty goals for myself.  As I thought more about them, I realized they were pretty shitty goals, all things considered.  I really don't want to be a CEO, I think that takes an optimist and someone good at politics and slinging a lot of bullshit.  That's really what I used to want to be, like the CEO of Ford.  A "Captain of Industry."  Man my mother latched onto that phrase.  But when you're 16 the world looks like a really exciting place.   But then you find out about rent, cable, verizon, cell phone, gas, electric, laundry, bla bla bla.  Have a bad experience or two and your outlook changes drastically.  Make some dumb moves (sure... let's drop out of college... k, great!) no matter how many times you're told not to...  Use lots of ellipses...&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;Anyway, just rambling.  I love my proxy server.  When you find yourself taking joy in setting up a proxy server accessed over an SSH tunnel so that you can use the internet securely, you begin to realize that maybe you're not like the average person.  I also hate hoes.  My boss asked me if I wanted to go to a strip club the other day and the idea repulsed me.  Why would you pay some skanky ho to rub her ass on you?  Then what are you supposed to do?  Not my idea of fun.  I'm not a prude by any stretch of the imagination, but that is just nasty to me.  If you want to do a ho then do one, but I'm not spending money to be teased.  Not that I would pay a ho, but at least I can see a value in that service.  Paying some girl to rub her ass on you is not something I'd even want done to me for free, nevermind paying for it.  &lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;Friendster is kind of neat.</description><comments>http://evock.xanga.com/210127189/item/#firstcomment</comments></item></channel></rss>